Party of One

A guy I used to know named Jason Hauser wrote the first verse & chorus, and asked me to write more. I didn't really follow his style, but it turned out alright. Please keep in mind, I was really into NIN at this time & Tool was one of my new favorites. Very dark & sad, really. Too much blow & alchohol, methinks! Well, at least the alchohol. And the blow. Really, it was the blow. Did I mention the blow?


Party of One

I lay myself down once again,
taken back by the voices in my head.
The speak of sin...and I
make my way back to old temptation,
give into new sensations,
spending time by myself I think I'll turn the lights down.....

(Chorus I)
And is the what I've become?
A broken man come undone?
Chewing on glass and wood and stone, I sup away...
No second chances, I've missed my first..
Things seem better but just get worse,
no time for layin' to waste.
And I'm runnin' late for my....
Party of One
(End Chorus I)

Can it be I've misplaced myself?
I cry out, but no one wants to help.
Alone again, trapped in this sphere,
I close my eyes and disappear.
The hours of life pass swiftly by,
I close my eyes & begin to cry...

I can't remember the past I had,
I bide my time and slowly go mad.
The voices grow louder from time to time,
ancient songs that invade my mind.
I scream in pain, agony, & rage,
Knowing my life has reached the last page.

(Chorus II)
It's all over, the damage is done,
I find myself aching for the heat of the sun.
With open eyes, the light blinds my soul.
I try to resist, but have no control.
I brace myself for the paint that's to come,
the hurt that becomes my party of one.
(End Chorus II)


So, yeah, that was really Trent Reznor, eh? Thought this would be entertain me, or you, or somebody. And is it just me, or do I really like the word "sphere"? I mean, if I could use it more than once in a song, I think the whole song would be named "Sphere". Anyhoo, enjoy, will post some original new shite soon!

Tears of Joy

So, haven't really been in the eloquent mood lately, but I decided I would post a song I wrote about a million years ago.....would love to hear feedback, not like I'm trying to sell the thing, but I like the input! For the record, I know that it's not gold record caliber, but I think it's at least catchy!!!


Tears of Joy

I'm in the shadows without her,
everything is cold and dark in my sphere.
She's so far away from me,
but always one kiss from here.
I whisper her name softly,
and cry for her return,
soon we will be together,
and then our hears shall burn.

(Chorus)

Can you feel it in your heart?
Does it make you sing?
Loving you from the start,
my feelings inside you bring....
You and I were made for each other,
I knew that all along.
Rain will never fall in our world,
only Tears of Joy.

(End Chorus)

The weeks and months pass by at a glance,
and laugh at all the time.
Holding you forever with me,
You were always meant to be mine.
Like petals on a flower,
love is fragrant and fragile.
Thank you for being a beacon,
in the storm of my desire.

(Repeat Chorus)


Sappy, i know, but what the hell, it's better than this second one. I'll post that one next, just to keep each post to a polite size.

Some randomness

Yes, random.
Like life, randomness keeps us guessing,
keeps us thinking,
keeps us breathing.
Can you imagine if everything was set?
Complications would never arise,
no one would have to leave the comfort of their own box.
Yeah, that would suck.
Unless you really like your box.
But then,
we all have boxes inside.
Some have crates,
to cover the boxes when it floods.
My walls are solid,
but I can also make them transparent.
Ultimately,
they're still there,
keeping you guessing.
So,
in a way,
it's all random,
after all.
Can you dig it?

Numbness carries it weight with me,
forces me to try to feel more.
I fight against the power to give up,
lay down and wait for another day.
"I've got to make this work!"
I say,
knowing it's the same thing I've said for years.
But I will,
in time.
It's just the time thing that has me so stressed out.
Hurry, hurry, hurry....
Like my life is a sideshow in a circus,
and I'm that dumb mark in the front row.
Still,
if you wait too long,
it will all pass you by.
And if you go to slow,
it will all pass you by.
So what's the motivation?
Where's the key to the front door?
Have I really been standing still?
Or did I run past it already?
No signs,
no arrows pointing in the right direction.
Guide me,
stars.